There Should be a Word for It

[gnomi]

That rush of fear at the sudden realization that you've contradicted yourself between the main story you're writing and the outtake you've written to get it out of your brain but that doesn't fit into the main story, and then the relief you feel when you realize that no one other than a trusted friend has seen either piece yet.

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[goldsquare.livejournal.com]

I believe it was the old IBM Jargon dictionary that described this sort of emotional moment as a "klong - noun - a sudden rush of shit to the heart".

I don't know about the relief part.